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Linking up with Emily Freeman's Tuesdays Unwrapped today ....
I need to write. There are a million things in my house right now that need to be picked up and put in their place, but I need to write and begin to sort through these thoughts and feelings in my head. Three hours ago my fiancé and I broke up. God was leading him somewhere He was not leading me.
In Emily Freeman's post about Tuesdays Unwrapped, she said write about where you are and not where you wish you were instead, and then find a small moment to celebrate. So, here I am ... sitting cross-legged on my living room couch, tears streaming down my face with my heart broken ... looking for a moment to celebrate.
What I celebrate tonight isn't a moment, but it's a God who I know will get me through this. When I was single, I would pray to God that I knew whether He had called me to be single or not, either way He would get me through it. And, I still believe that truth tonight.
While I may hate this point in my journey right now, I KNOW that God will pull me through it. There will be tears (lots of them, I'm sure), questions with seemingly no answers and confusion, but there will also be moments of peace and love and unexpected joy throughout this grieving process. He's shown me those things before, and I know He will again. That is the truth I am clinging to tonight and that is the God that I celebrate and am thankful for .... always.
"Nobody knows why your heart is broken, but Love does." -Brandon Heath
Hi. I found you through your link on Emily's blog and just wanted to say that I was encouraged by this post. The rawness...the realness...the clinging to Jesus...it's a beautiful thing to see.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, Fawne! I'm really glad God used this post to encourage you.
DeleteBrooke, My heart breaks for you my sweet friend. You are such an amazing, strong, loving, beautiful person. Lean strongly on your faith, there is a plan for your life and it is to be spectacular. I love you.
ReplyDeleteSweet Colleen, thank you so much for your kind and encouraging words. I am so glad to have you in my life and your words were just what I needed to read. I love you, too.
DeleteHi there Brooke! Visiting from Emily's blog also! And I just wanted to say, wow, you are brave and honest to share your heart, straight from the moment.. a hard thing to walk through. Hope you continue to know God's love each step of the way as you come through this. This is a tough time of year to be sad, I know. Just remember you don't have to put on a fake smile and have an "I'm fine!" attitude, you can cry out honestly to God and that's ok. :)
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Frances, thank you so much for your comment. Your words are an encouragement to me!
DeleteI just commented, but then I think I clicked something wrong and it disappeared! So if this is repeating myself I'm sorry!
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to say, thank you for sharing so honestly & bravely from the hard place you are in. Praying that you'll experience God's comfort & love richly during this season. It's a hard time of year to be sad, I know.. just remember you don't have to put on a smile or say "I'm fine" to God, you can come to Him honestly, and that's ok. :)
~Frances
Oh Brooke, Hearing you share from the depths of your heartache was so beautiful and soulful. I'm so very very sorry that you are having to walk through this painful experience, but at the same time it's so refreshing to read that you still absolutely trust God in the midst of the storm. I'm praying for you tonight friend.
ReplyDeleteLove and hugs,
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Thank you Kirsten for your kind and encouraging words and thank you for the prayers--they have been felt.
DeleteBroken engagements hurt. I've been there, friend. Lots of tears and heartache. I pray that you do find his glory even here... where the "hurt and the healer collide."
ReplyDeleteTherese, thank you so much for your comment--I so appreciate your encouragement.
DeleteHi there Brooke...it's your other Brooke here and my heart breaks for you. I've had a broken week as well, but your words lifted me up...God always meets us right where we are. I heard these lyrics in a contemporary Christian song the other day called "No Matter What." The lyrics say, "I know a heartache has to go through Your hands before it can touch my life." You'll be in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteBrooke, thank you so much for your sweet words. When I read your comment about the "No Matter What" song, I felt like it was exactly what I was supposed to read at that moment. I love how God uses people to relay messages like that. Praying for you, too, for your broken week---I'm hoping that this week is better for you.
Deletemagnolia grace, what a beautiful name. i clicked here randomly and though you are a stranger to me, i feel compelled to tell you that you aren't alone. the love of God will carry you and hold you. peace on your journey.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much anjuli for your kind and encouraging words-they are much appreciated.
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